Way Back Then But Not Now...

Today I wont have  to pretend that im satisfied about anything that I don't want to. My father undeniably upset me this weekend. Me being a commendably giving type of person, just sometimes feels the need to be alone along with the rare times where I long to have some one on one time with MY own person time with my father uninterrupted. Don't get me wrong i have NO problem sharing my dad, past sharing but loaning past loaning to giving him away. except every other weekend, to my stepsister who also has a father but finds comfort in having mine along also. I not seeing my dad but , like I said every other weekend would like a little time with him when I do. Also since I'm the type to be bold and entirely rude I choose not to at anytime tell my sister to leave or to let me be alone with my dad without her. I could never bring myself to that. I used to when I was smaller but becoming more mature and respective of other feelings now I dont. I knowingly go without but choose not to forget how easily he pushes me off on other people. I could clearly ask him to do something with me and emphasize "with ME" and ten other people end up coming and him, not coming at all. Sucks but i bite my tongue so eloquently to hold off dispute until he notices my attitude toward the whole thing, but even then I still say nothing. I guess I'm too mature and have had to deal with so many thing and have been taught so much that I don't feel the need to voice my opinion in detail but just know that when that mobbing gangster look is thrown at you it could be much worse.