The Bus

I don't understand how you can come straight from the best day to the worst. Today was horrible, it was like waiting for the bus five minutes before you knew you were going to be late for work. I could've sworn it was going to be different, but I still got the same as the other people. My stomach is so unhappy with this that I want to throw up but am unable to because its pathetic. I try not to tear up cause no one else is, needless to say that I would look stupid. I caught the bus earlier today, but it didn't arrive at all when it was time for me to catch it again. All of this sucks, cause this lil story is just a big metaphor to a story that occur in the middle of the street when I sat there and the car drove away, reverse that story and if your smart you got what happened. Maybe not but even if I told you would infer it was my fault. That's just how people are, you might dismiss this cause it seems as though I'm just rambling but I'm not. Ever been on a roller coaster full of emotion you couldn't explain to anyone how you felt, not because you thought they wouldn't understand but because you would be labeled. Well that's bad for you happy I don't feel that way.             England

"Uncontrolled"

Sometimes I wish my life was just a dream cause all I want to do right now is cry. My life is horrible, nothing is right, the way I want it and it seems as though I can't make it right either. Everything is out of hand I cant believe this, this weekend was uncontrolled by me I don't know what happened I'm usually better than this, I usually don't let things get to me but today was like the last strike. Grr I hate me!

"In Atlanta"

Sitting here in this cold lil place with family along wth a few people I'm not familiar with.

"Get Out of Town" Mem Day Wee

"Alright alright alright, today is the day that I take the annual Memorial Day weekend trip to the Atlanta with my family to see my family. Had a few plans for this weekend but they will just have to be postponed for another weekend. I have a great unsure feeling that this weekend is going to be awesome. Many people and plans I'm leaving behind, I'm so sorry for the sudden change in plans, but FUN is on the other side and I wish the same to you!!!  BBQ, fireworks, viewing of the old people... my future is bright!"   XOXO :) England

A Fading Predecessor

"At night, when you sun is unsure if it is willing to stay in the sky another moment, the moon arrives and the sun hurries away, I wonder about you and yours if you think of me more often than I think of you. No doubt we see each other quite often, but when your not around my thoughts of you vanish into a place of free space. I hear of your kind from the well informed, yet I lack the full side of your story. You are a creator, destructor, and a lier at times but that's who you've become. I hear from you only when my mind wonders to where you lay lost, out of sight, out of mind. Your presence is absent even when your around, you voice is distant even when we're face to face but seemingly, everyone else hears you clearly. Pity flows from my lips as we speak, you are weak but you have forced yourself to carry this burden you call life, which is not lived by you but dictated by those surrounding you. You are happy when others are, a sweet thing to be, but remain sad in your seemingly happy hours. Your heart is visibly burned like cigarettes pressed to skin, you died but were brought back to life by mercy. You are unnoticed by me, just a person I often see, because you do not roam in my thoughts you fade into indefinite room. Who are you, what is your purpose,.. did you ever have one. I pray when the sun is unsure if it is willing to stay in the sky another moment, then moon arrives and the sun hurries away, you will find your purpose and that I will recall you one day in my thoughts."

 #EnglandThinks

Silent Treatment

       "Why is it when you decide to let the truth be known its so hurtful, to the one telling it and to the person receiving it? Its crazy how people ask for what you think, how you feel, and ask random questions then force you to at least make up an answer for them. People simply can't handle the truth, but I do agree it should be told no matter the outcome. That just seems right to me, not that I'm just a really blunt person I just prefer the truth and if I didn't want it I would've asked for it. Simple as that! Goodness everyone can't bear the consequences to honest words. Silence is one of those consequences, but thats fine with me, gives me a chance to think, write, and grow. Everyone might not understand but everyone will hear."                     England Again! :D

Road to the Riches

"I've been listening to this song, sounds like it’s by Usher. Its goes “On the road to the riches try to stop and take pictures" I just really understood this song. I mean, basically that’s what life is about, what you learn, see, experience, tell, and remember. The best way to remember is to take a picture or make a mental note of it. That also made me think of this saying it goes "don’t forgive and forget, forgive and be able to recall it if it happens again. :) Today has been a good day involving good feelings some not the best, but what day do you know that’s perfect. Being extremely transparent with yourself is a very hard thing to do, seeing yourself for who you really are and not just who you want to be. I think so many people get caught up in their dreams, that they ignore their reality which plays a huge part in your future. Everyone is guilty of it, not that dreaming is a bad thing at all, I guess I'm just coming to realize that dreams can only last so long before you have to wake up and MAKE them come true. Blessings are not things you cry out for and they magically fall into your lap, action has to take place and that’s something that I have been failing to see. Being real with yourself has a lot to do with testifying against yourself at times, stating your claim, cause truth being told the only thing keep us away for our success is failure and the only keeping us in failure is lack of confidence, knowing we can and will succeed, which is an internal struggle, since no one can give you, your confidence. The only thing worse than failing is not trying at all."                                       England!

"The End of the World"

"Oka Oka. I've heard from multiple sources that on today the world is suppose to END. The problem is that I'm still here lol. Not that I'm just a complete Bible baby but I try my best to do right so I kinda expected to be one who received an invitation. Since that did not occur it is not the end of the world , and whoever initailly said that was completely bored. Anyway, I'm over my grandma's house like I planned, got some good rest last night. Gonna/Gotta get in the shower. Granny is going to something this morning in which I have decided not to attend. So I will be staying here and painting my nails a pretty color, great idea huh? I know! This is going to be a great day besides the fact that one of my favorite people is leaving for a mission trip going to Florida until like July I think he said. Kinda sad, that's why I called up Miguel on my Ipod and had him sing me a few songs. Sure Thing!!"      England

"The Night Is Young!!!"

" Okie Dokie so today was like a great day all round, besides that I was totally ill prepared for the Spanish exam today. Today was definately just a breeze away day for me. I plan to go to my grandma's house. So yesterday at my grandma's house i took a big girl panty pill and told , the guy i currently talk to more than any "normal guy" that I wasn't totally sure I liked him. Well not exactly in those word, we talked about things we felt we wanted to change in our own lives, which lead to what we wanted each other to change. Of course I began with the "don't try to please me" but ended with the "Im just not that into you" in a round about way. Of couse he thought we should keep talking just to get to know each other a little better, in a way I agreed. All I seem to see is the churchy person I liked, which is not what I got at the movies. It was a gangster at his prime. Please do not think I'm being dramatic cause not only me, but a very good friend which is a reliable source confronted me about the same concern. I decided to bring it to his attention and he claimed it as simply a wardrobe change for the relaxed time of the day. I saw it as a wardrode misdemeanor worth a jail sentence, now I'm being dramatic. Anyway yesterday he graduated from high school which I was unable to attend because like I stated before I was at my grandma's house. I also had a very crazy dream last night very scary I dont care to elaborate That was yesterday though. Today nothing too fantastic has happened yet... BUT THE NIGHT IS YOUNG!!!!"

Oh NO oh YES

"YESTERDAY: Wierd: Wow so tell me the reasoning behind the rumor that one of my male associates has a female pregnant at my school.. And thats not even the killer....!He denies it!... people.. sex is no good esspecially when you situation ends up like that. Wow thats just crazy. It coud very well be his and he just doesn't want to tell me but he also said I wasn't the only one who had asked him about the though. Thats none of my business thought so.. moving on.. YESTERDAY:  Awesome:  I had the most awesome time at church last noght just being thankful for all the great things GOD does in our individual lives an even the simple thing he does that we take for granted like eyelashes and eyebrows, we need these things and good too the time to create a purpose for them and IT WORKS!!! lol Wow me and one of my closest friends were just amazed by it.

" Just as I planned!"

"LOL so.. today was just a great day, things went like i planned I suppose. Hahaha well I had this outragous paper to write for my English class. The trip is that I wrote the whole thing in one day all four pages. This de factos my thought that I am a writer at heart! I also prayed and I got the answer I wanted.. so all is wel in the world of London England. Many things accomplished, just a satisfying sense of self AWESOME!!! :) Proceed Progress"

"I realized at the movies..."

Movies with... ever missed someone who you knew used to missed you but weren't sure if they did anymore. Ever been bored with the person you liked cause you knew that you would be having more fun with another person, one you like more.  Well that was me today but do I feel bad for it, No!! Im London and I shouldn't feel bad for how I feel,, should I? Hmm, well, only my personal thoughts can fully express how I feel, not the words being typed onto this screen almost precisely when I think them cause of the simple fact, that you can't read my emotions. Ugh!! I wish you could then you would warn the world that there's a confused ticking bomb counting down with an unsure time limit :) Thats me (joking)... confused for the day but always sticking to THE PLAN, with a little guidance from mommy dear things are back on track.
                           lil MS England

My First Blog

This as it says in the title is my first blog, so i dont exactly know what im doing so I'm just going to end this one until next time... :)