"In Your Mind"

I wish I could somehow get inside of your mind and know everything you thought of me while you were thinking those things. The concepts you might be too cautioned to tell me or the things you'd just rather not. I want to know what you're thinking about when you are silent and your eyes look into mine in amazement and wonder. I know you would never tell me word for word your thoughts; when speaking people tend to translate their thoughts into its simplest form to make sure its understood. I don't want that, I am eager to know how you feel without you sugar-coating it, your opinions of me in the most rawest forms. How you feel when you hear me speak, what your mind wonders to; when you touch me, what you relate it to. I might never become close enough for you to be honest and tell me your brutal true feelings, and that's what concerns me. Why can't, not only you but the both of  us be completely open with out thoughts and emotions with each other. I want to be able to express my deepest delights and depressions with you exactly how I feel them, without the thought that you might not care or receive them correctly. I'm certain there, at times, might be excommunication, but without it how would we ever know to attempt to fix it. My thoughts of you run deeper than any ocean and so do my thoughts on every subject there is if I'm given some time to process it. I won't be able to tell you everything, but knowing that I won't, who I be not to try not only for your awareness but for me also. Your interests mean a lot to me and I wanna be the one you, in confidence tell about them. I want to know every word you want to hold back and every word you will never say.

London England.... I think... " I am back."