You're Not Listening

You can sit back and think about everything you have ever done wrong along with all the people you've hurt and ask why do I make those types of choices. Then on the other hand you sit back and you ask am I really hurting this person or are they ok with the decisions I am making and never have the courage to ask. I can't please everyone, but I can always please myself, I have that ability. I wonder, if my words became muted to you would you still, somewhere in your mind, acknowledge that I just might still be alive or would I fall into obliviousness and become invisible to in your thoughts. I purposely cut you off and I know that I will sometimes wonder about your presence but being in two different places in our lives will eliminate thoughts about possibility. I might seem as if I'm just rambling and if your feeling that way then you're not listening. I wont, and have not been this open about truth as I am to you. Some things are to dangerous to try and you just cant handle your own truth no matter how accepting someone might be of it. No doubt I do like myself but comfort is what I will no longer allow and you are often that sofa of my favorite fabric I lay upon to sleep my reality away. Your ears are open to listen but you are not. As your eyes read from line to line, word for word imagine me speaking them and the flow of the syllables. If your feelings have broken and your understanding has failed, you are not listening. Fear of self will lead you away from the mirror and not allowing yourself to look will leave you without challenge to change your movements. I am changing my movements, I do often, do not miss anyone, life is full of seasons and I am the flower, winter is soon to come and my presence will be gone from you. I might return but chances are I might not. Do not water me or try to replant what is clearly not able to grow, that will leave you sad and anxious. A smile and simple greeting is all a person will ask for if they do not know you, but once known you are thought to open up to that person and mail them information about yourself. I just wanted to meet you, nothing more, but more is the result of the mail I have sent you. If I'm not saying anything, You're Not Listening